Creativity and wanting

Feel free to ignore any "woe!" undertones present in the below; just writing it down yesterday made me feel a lot better, and I think the tone is a little overly serious reading it over now XD

The new year is always a time of mixed feelings for me. On the one hand, it gives me a culturally-sanctioned opportunity to "start over" and change things about my life that I want to change; on the other, though, is the knowledge that I've never kept one "New Year's Resolution" that I ever made. Maybe the problem is in the term "resolution" that coastal_spirit pointed out in her recent post – it doesn't allow room for failure or for making great progress but not attaining your exact resolution. Though it's an arbitrarily chosen date, the start of the year gives me a good reason to make changes, but there's always the doubt that I simply won't.

And what do I want to change? That word "want" needs a lot of unpacking. ( Rambling Katie is rambly )

So here's the master list of things I'd like to do differently, or do at all, to be updated whenever I get ideas. This isn't a "I resolve to..." kind of list, but more like a way to keep track and remind myself of the things I want to make an effort to do.

- Meditate daily. No, really, Katie, I mean it this time. If daily doesn't work, try as often per week as possible. I know it makes me feel better, so there's no reason not to.
- Start writing the Eadswith and Deue story. Research is all well and good, but books don't get written without actual writing taking place.
- Draw more. Whatever I want, no obligations of quality required.
- Participate in mori girl fashion, whether it be through my own clothes, doll clothes, drawing, or just looking at pictures online.
- Keep track of what I eat. Counting points using iTrackBites, an iPhone app, seems to be holding my attention well. Even if I don't stay within my points, just keeping track helps me lose weight and feel healthier.
- Keep up with the laundry, dishes, and tidying.